You may be familiar with that old-time hymn, “Does Jesus Care?” I’m really thankful that Frank* was asking the same question in 1901 that I have been asking in 2015.
In the song, Frank asks, “Does Jesus care when my heart is pained too deeply for mirth or song?” And, “Does Jesus care […] when my sad heart aches till it nearly breaks – Is it aught to Him? Does He see?”
When deep pain enters our lives, we have to ask these hard questions. It’s who we are. There may be something wrong with us if we don’t ask them at least a little bit. You’re not betraying God if you ask them. If you’re angry with God, it’s okay. He can take it. He already knows your anger, so you might as well be honest with Him.
I’ve asked God these hard questions. It took a while to get an answer. Sometimes it feels like no one is listening.
In my pain, I was thinking God was doing hurtful things to me and expecting me to pull myself up by my own boot straps. Then a friend looked me in the face and said, “I want you to know God is grieving with you. He isn’t expecting you to be okay.” That rocked my world and changed my perspective.
I started letting God grieve with me. Instead of trying to act strong when talking to God, I told Him how I really felt. I fell apart with Him. And you know what I found? Grace. Grace that heals. I found God’s heart resonating with my own. I found not only does He care, He is grieving with me!
So, along with Frank, I say:
Oh, yes, He cares, I know He cares,
His heart is touched with my grief;
When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
I know my Savior cares.
*Does Jesus Care? was written by Frank E. Graeff in 1901.